Hi, I’m Vivian. This year, I’ll be turning 50.

In the lead-up to this milestone, I’ve been reflecting on the life I’ve lived—and realizing I spent decades being who everyone else thought I should be.

So last year, after a lifetime of living someone else’s story, I whispered the truth out loud—for the first time—to my family and friends. After decades of folding myself small, I came out.

As my New Zealand friends say, I’m not straight—I’m wobbly.

Now? I’m on a mission to finally meet the woman I was always meant to be. I’m traveling solo. Trying everything on the menu. Wearing what makes me feel powerful. Pulling internalized homophobia out by the roots. Building a life that actually feels like mine.

Style-wise? I dress like I’ve got a standing invitation to an exclusive secret garden—where the vibes are queer, chic, and unapologetically fabulous.

This space is for anyone who’s ever asked, “Is it too late to start over?”

Spoiler: it’s not.

It’s never too late to choose yourself.

So if you love travel, fashion, beautiful food—or you’ve ever asked, “Wait, is this gay?”—hit subscribe.

This is just the beginning.